one year ago.

What a year!
One year ago today I receive a phone call that rocked my world.
I didn't know that one phone call would cause so many emotions.
It was one year ago that we were told to stop trying to have a baby.
I was not prepared to hear those words in the least.

What time has done!
How far I have come.
Time is such a good thing.

In one full year I have let things go, and have enjoyed my life.

I have learned to hear myself say out loud "I can't have children."
I have learned that the grass may not be as green on the other side.
I have learned its okay to be 30 and not be a mom yet.
I have learned to completely let go of all my tears, frustration, and sadness.
I have finally allowed my Savior to take away my sorrows so that I can be happy.

I have thoroughly enjoyed not having to poke myself with shots.
I have loved not having to plan around the doctors schedule.
I have loved sleeping in.
I have loved traveling to Ireland, Australia and Fiji.
I have loved training my dog Magnus!
I have loved going to the gym.
I have loved shopping and eating out.
I have loved working on our house and yard.
I have loved my life of "just be".

I am in a good place and I am so happy that I took a year to "heal".
I am so excited for our journey ahead.
I am so happy for the gift of adoption.
I am so excited that I get to be a mom, it may have not been "my plan"
but I know Heavenly Father has a plan for me.
We just have to wait for a sweet birth mother who is carrying our baby.
So in the mean time I will enjoy my life.